Question

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我该如何活下去？
很久以前，我想象着过着平凡的生活，每天上班，每个月的固定工资；
找一个平凡的女人结婚，生一个小孩，把他养大，这就是我一辈子的生活。我都快忘了那是我什么时候的想法。
从小，家里只有父亲和我，母亲在国外打工。父亲总是喝酒，赌博。没有人管我。我自然的养成了独立的性格，什么事情都自己解决。但是！
自长大以后，我工作了。但我发现，现在的工资水平完全不能满足家里的花销。我做了一个决定，我决定出国。出国赚钱，虽然不能过上那平淡的生活，这也倒没什么。
父亲独自在家，也很可怜，没有人陪，我也走了。这也是没办法，为了赚钱。。
我只希望父亲能少喝些酒，不要再去赌博了。
抱着美丽的幻想，我出国了。但是，国外并不是我想象的那样美好。如果把中国比喻成是美梦，那里就是噩梦。。
我在外国和母亲生活在一起。从小就非常敏感的我，发现了一件事情。
我发现了母亲在外有别的男人，这让我头疼欲裂，这个问题看来我解决不了了。。
一心说为了我而怎样的母亲，我是否还能相信，让我把每个月的收入都交到母亲那保管，我是否还能相信。。
母亲说，不想再回国了。。
我是否该告诉父亲，我到底应该做出什么样的决定？？
我在2014年2月回国了，我最后还是没有把这个事情告诉父亲，我不知道该怎么解决。。
我不知道为什么从小就得不到父爱与母爱的我，长大了以后为什么还要遭受这样的经历。
现在每天我都要吃近似安眠药的药物才能睡觉，有时还会头疼的受不了。。
我知道，自从我出生，就欠父母的。我需要一笔钱，一笔还债的钱，父母的债。
如果我一个人生活，我想我会过得比现在要好得多。。
父亲；在外赌博喝酒，不务正业。母亲；在外有别的男人。。
我不知道我该怎么继续生活，怎么继续活下去。。
我到底该如何活下去？？

Answer 1

How do I live?

很久以前，我想象着过着平凡的生活，每天上班，每个月的固定工资；

A long time ago, I
imagined living
ordinary lives,
work every day,
fixed
monthly salary;

找一个平凡的女人结婚，生一个小孩，把他养大，这就是我一辈子的生活。我都快忘了那是我什么时候的想法。

Find an ordinary woman get married,
have a baby, he raised a large, this is my life. I almost forgot that I was when the idea of what.

从小，家里只有父亲和我，母亲在国外打工。父亲总是喝酒，赌博。没有人管我。我自然的养成了独立的性格，什么事情都自己解决。但是！

Since childhood, home only my father and I,
mother working
abroad. Father always drinking, gambling.
No one cares about me. My natural to develop an independent personality, what are their own solution.
But!

自长大以后，我工作了。但我发现，现在的工资水平完全不能满足家里的花销。我做了一个决定，我决定出国。出国赚钱，虽然不能过上那平淡的生活，这也倒没什么。

Since after growing up,
I work. But I found, now fully wages can not meet the family expenses. I made a decision,
I decided to go abroad.
To make
money, although not on the ordinary life, this is not what.

父亲独自在家，也很可怜，没有人陪，我也走了。这也是没办法，为了赚钱。。

The father alone at home,
but also very poor,
and no one to walk, I
will go. This is no way, in order to make money..

我只希望父亲能少喝些酒，不要再去赌博了。

I only hope that my father can
drink some
wine, don't gamble.

抱着美丽的幻想，我出国了。但是，国外并不是我想象的那样美好。如果把中国比喻成是美梦，那里就是噩梦。。

Embrace the beautiful fantasy, I went abroad.
However, foreign is not good as I expected. If the China analogy is a dream,
there is a
nightmare..

我在外国和母亲生活在一起。从小就非常敏感的我，发现了一件事情。

I'm
in
foreign and mother
live
together. Childhood is very sensitive to me, found a thing.

我发现了母亲在外有别的男人，这让我头疼欲裂，这个问题看来我解决不了了。。

I
found the mother
with
another man, I have a splitting headache, this problem I can't solve..

一心说为了我而怎样的母亲，我是否还能相信，让我把每个月的收入都交到母亲那保管，我是否还能相信。。

He
said to me and what kind of mother, I can believe that,
let me take the
monthly income to
the
mother's
custody, whether I can believe..

母亲说，不想再回国了。。

Mother said,
don't want to go
home..

我是否该告诉父亲，我到底应该做出什么样的决定？？

Should I tell father, what should I do what kind of decision??

我在2014年2月回国了，我最后还是没有把这个事情告诉父亲，我不知道该怎么解决。。

I went back to China in 2014 February, I finally did not tell the father this matter, I don't know how to solve..

我不知道为什么从小就得不到父爱与母爱的我，长大了以后为什么还要遭受这样的经历。

I don't know why I
have no father and
mother of
I, grow up why suffer such experience.

现在每天我都要吃近似安眠药的药物才能睡觉，有时还会头疼的受不了。。

The drug can I want to eat sleeping pills now approximate daily sleep, sometimes a
bear..

我知道，自从我出生，就欠父母的。我需要一笔钱，一笔还债的钱，父母的债。

I know, ever since I was born,
they owe their
parents. I need a sum of money, a debt money, parents' debt.

如果我一个人生活，我想我会过得比现在要好得多。。

If one of my personal life, I think I will be much better than now..

父亲；在外赌博喝酒，不务正业。母亲；在外有别的男人。。

Father in the gambling drink, work.
Mother; there are other men
outside..

我不知道我该怎么继续生活，怎么继续活下去。。

I don't know what should I continue to live,
how to
live..

我到底该如何活下去？？

What am I supposed to live??

Answer 2

How do I live?
A long time ago, I imagined living ordinary lives, work every day, fixed monthly salary;
Find an ordinary woman get married, have a baby, he raised a large, this is my life. Ialmost forgot that I was when the idea of what.
Since childhood, home only my father and I, mother working abroad. Father alwaysdrinking, gambling. No one cares about me. My natural to develop an independentpersonality, what are their own solution. But!
Since after growing up, I work. But I found, now fully wages can not meet the familyexpenses. I made a decision, I decided to go abroad. To make money, although noton the ordinary life, this is not what.
The father alone at home, but also very poor, and no one to walk, I will go. This is no way, in order to make money..
I only hope that my father can drink some wine, don't gamble.
Embrace the beautiful fantasy, I went abroad. However, foreign is not good as I expected. If the China analogy is a dream, there is a nightmare..
I'm in foreign and mother live together. Childhood is very sensitive to me, found a thing.
I found the mother with another man, I have a splitting headache, this problem I can't solve..
He said to me and what kind of mother, I can believe that, let me take the monthly income to the mother's custody, whether I can believe..
Mother said, don't want to go home..
Should I tell father, what should I do what kind of decision??
I went back to China in 2014 February, I finally did not tell the father this matter, I don't know how to solve..
I don't know why I have no father and mother of I, grow up why suffer such experience.
The drug can I want to eat sleeping pills now approximate daily sleep, sometimes abear..
I know, ever since I was born, they owe their parents. I need a sum of money, a debt money, parents' debt.
If one of my personal life, I think I will be much better than now..
Father in the gambling drink, work. Mother; there are other men outside..
I don't know what should I continue to live, how to live..
What am I supposed to live??

Answer 3

How do I live ?
A long time ago , I imagine living an extraordinary life , go to work every day , every month a fixed salary ;
Find an ordinary woman to marry , give birth to a child , he was raised , and this is my life life. I almost forgot what time it was my idea .
Since childhood, the family only father and my mother working abroad . My father always drinking , gambling . Nobody control me . I naturally develop an independent personality , anything themselves. But !
Since I grew up working. But I have found that wages are now completely unable to meet the expenses at home. I made a decision, I decided to go abroad. To go abroad to make money, although that does not live a dull life , which nothing down .
Father alone at home , and very poor , no one to accompany , I have to go. This is no way to make money. .
I only wish my father could drink some wine , do not go to gamble .
Holding a beautiful fantasy , I went abroad . However , foreign is not as good as I imagined . If China is a dream metaphor , there is a nightmare . .
I live together in a foreign country and mother. I grew up very sensitive and found a thing.
I found a mother out there with another man , it makes me a splitting headache, it seems that I can not solve this problem a . .
As one said to me and what kind of mother I still believe that , let me put the monthly income is handed the mother's custody, I still believe. .
The mother said , do not want to come home . .
Should I tell my father that I should be made in the end what kind of decision ? ?
I came back in February 2014 , I finally did not put this thing to tell my father, I do not know how to solve . .
I do not know why childhood fatherly and motherly love, not me, why should grow up to suffer this experience .
Now every day I have to eat a drug similar to sleeping pills , and sometimes headache stand. .
I know , ever since I was born , they owe their parents. I need some money , a sum of money to repay the debt , the debt of parents .
If I were a person's life , I think I'll be much better off than now . .
Father ; outer gambling drinking, worthless . Mother ; out there with another man . .
I do not know how to continue to live , how to live. .
I live in the end how ? ?

Answer 4

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