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哪位高手帮忙把这段话翻译成英文？拜托了！

原来有些事是真的不愿回忆的。既然今天下决心了，那就痛到底。
记得知道你小名的时候，是因为你书包上写的“豆豆”。我们创新了各种叫法，我还是喜欢而且习惯叫你“豆子”。这一叫就是多年。
你不是我的第一个好朋友，说的难听一点，我是被你抢过去的。我这个人天生就是这样，不懂得拒绝，不愿伤任何一个人的心。可就是这样的性格，却伤了朋友，也伤了自己。你也说过，我好像跟谁都玩的很好，可只有我自己知道，我只是想让大家不讨厌我，我不希望和任何一个人成为仇人，我很孤单，我不是一个敢爱敢恨的人。“你是我最好的朋友”这句话不是假的，它是我心底最真诚的想法。
你知道，我的第一个最好的朋友是康，然后不知怎么就成了薛。之后，就变成了你。她们两个都是好人，是我对不起她们。现在想来，突然觉得她们懂得太多了，在我还是个幼稚的孩童时。记得那次，你，我，薛的最后一次了断吗？我很怕，我不知道我在怕什么。怕失去朋友？还是怕选择一个后，和另一个昔日的朋友成为仇人？我怕做出选择。我记得，当时你的那帮朋友和你在一起，说要和我理论理论。好像薛和她们吵的很凶，你坐在花坛上哭了。我当好不容易下定决心，拉起薛的手，刚要走，却听到了一句怒吼：“你还有良心吗？！”这句话是史吼的，它改变了我的决定。这是我人生中一个很重要的决定吧。我松开了薛的手，走到了你身边。你挂着泪珠笑了，你的朋友围在你身边。你的人缘很好，如果我不选择你，是不是全班女生都会和我成为敌人？我是个懦弱的人，我不敢。我很想哭，但我不允许自己哭，我不愿意让别人看到我的眼泪。那时，我看到了薛那愤怒与失望的神情，她转身离去。我知道，我永远的失去了一个朋友。
我和你玩的很好。我一下课就去找你，每个课间都和你在一起。你总是能组织起伙伴们和你一起玩，那号召力，无人能敌。我记得你还自己排练过舞蹈，伙伴们全听你的，你文艺位委员的头衔也不是盖的。记得咱们俩装着喝醉酒的样子，跌跌撞撞地在操场上唱少先队歌吗？还有，那个咱们自创的游戏，站在花池边上往健身器上靠，好经典啊。运动会，咱俩还报了螃蟹跑，一次下学在你家院里练，你还跳了舞，真美，我真的很羡慕啊。咱们是第一批值周生，戴着授带真的很威风呢。记得吗？咱们还和同学，因为没带鞋套，趁老师不注意，逃过一节电脑课呢……我爸给你和我拍了不少照片，那是咱俩真的是开心啊。
就这样，二年级、三年级、四年级、五年级…我们开心的过去了。我没有想到在小学的最后一年里，友情会令我这样煎熬。
续转学到咱们班，金也坐到了你旁边。一切都不一样了，一切都变了。放学路上，续的妈妈对我说：“你和续正好同路，你学习好，要多帮帮她啊！”我哪可能拒绝，只好与她同路走。她本来就没什么朋友，再加上我好像跟每人都能玩到一起去，她自然而然就和我关系好起来。我试图向她暗示做普通朋友就好，可她不懂，我也不好意思再开口说了。我现在真的后悔，如果早一点说，是不是结局会好一点。终于，在一次她非要插进来之后，你爆发了。你说要我跟你道歉。我真想跟你说是你误会了，你永远是我最好的朋友。可我从来不善于表达，这点让我吃了很多亏，心里喜欢也不说，心里讨厌也不说。我跟贺说了这件事，她听了之后说这不是我的错，是你多疑了，我不用跟你道歉。可我一心一意要跟你和好，不管是冷战还是吵架，我都受不了。眼泪和天生可怜的面容是你的法宝，我只能想你道歉。

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So some things really do not want to recall. Since today is determined, then pain. Remember that when you name,because you write "bean bag". We innovate various way, I stilllike and used to call you "". This call is for many years. You are not my first good friend, said bluntly, I was you rob the past. I was born this way, do not know how to refuse, not tohurt any one's heart. This is to the character, but hurt thefriend, also hurt yourself. You also said, I like who are playing very well, but I know, I just want to let you don't hate me, I don't want to be the enemy and any one person, I was lonely,I am not a dare to love and hate. "You are my best friend."this sentence is not false, it is my most sincere idea. You know, one of my best friends is Kang, and somehow becamexue. After that, it becomes you. The two of them are good, I am sorry they. Want to come now, suddenly feel that theyknow too much, when I was a naive child. Remember that time, you, me, the last time this Xue? I'm afraid I don't know, I was afraid of what. Afraid to lose a friend? Or fear of choicea, be the enemy and another former friend? I'm afraid tomake a choice. I remember, when you help a friend with you,and I said to theory. Like Xue and their noise is very fierce,you sit on the bed crying. When I finally determined, pulls Xuehand, just to go, but heard a roar: "you have a conscience?!"This sentence is history roar, it changed my decision. This is a very important decision in my life. I loosened Xue hand,come to your side. You hanging tears smile, your friendsaround you. Your popularity is very good, if I don't choose you, is it right? The girl would become the enemy and me? I was a coward, I dare not. I want to cry, but I do not allow yourself to cry, I do not want to let others see my tears. At that time, I saw Xue Na angry and disappointed look, sheturned and walked away. I know, I lost a friend. You and I play very well. I will go to your class, each class will be with you.You can always have friends to play with you, the appeal,nobody can the enemy. I remember you still own rehearseddance partners, to you, you are the members of the title is not covered. Remember we pretended to get drunk, stumbledto sing the young pioneers song in the playground? Also, thatwe created the game, standing in the pond edge to the body-building device on, good. Games, we were called the crabrun, a school in your home theater of practicing, you still dancing, really beautiful, I really envy ah. We are the first batch of the week, wearing a ribbon really awe-inspiring.Remember? We also and students, because with no shoes,while the teacher wasn't looking, a computer lesson...... My dad took a lot of photos for you and me, is that we are reallyhappy ah. In this way, the second grade, the third grade, the fourth grade, the fifth grade... We are happy in the past. I did not expect that in the final year of primary school, friendship will make me suffer. Continued transferred to our class, goldalso sat next to you. Things are not the same, everything changed. On the way home from school, the mother said to me: "you and continue to just the way, you learn well, to helpher!" I even may refuse, he and she walked. She had no friends, plus I like everyone can play to go, she will come very naturally and I are good. I tried to suggest to do ordinaryfriends to her, but she did not understand, I also feel shy tospeak. I really regret it now, if a little earlier said, is it right?The outcome will be better. Finally, after a time she not toplug in, you off. You said I should apologize to you. I really want to tell you that you are wrong, you are my best friend forever. I was never very good at expression, this let me eat a lot of loss, heart love also does not say, heart hate also don't say. I told he said this thing, she said after listening to this is not my fault, you are paranoid, I don't have to apologize to you. I need to talk to you and undivided attention, whether itis cold or quarrel, I can't stand it. Tears and born poor face isyour magic, I can only apologize to you.
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